I give you a bath and you splash and play, wondering why you can’t grab the water and hold it in your hand like you can with your toys.
I take you out of the tub and dry you off. I put lotion on your already soft skin. I try to keep your curls in tact, but I always lose. Your hair is straight and fine like mine.
I put on your pjs and daddy kisses you off to bed. This quiet time is my favorite. I nurse you off to sleep, and when you pull away and rest your head, I can’t take my eyes from your sweet face. I could watch you all night.
You fight tiny glances at the room, at me. You reach to touch my face. You smile in your sleep. I always wonder what you dream about. I rub your little head and smooth your soft hair. If only nights were always like this.
Some nights you are wild and restless, but not tonight. Not this night. This perfect, sweet, serene night. If only I could keep this moment. Save it in a jar and hold onto it for another time. Other times. Whenever I need a moment of quiet happiness. You make my heart so full. It is only us in the world.
I finally lay you down in your crib. See you soon my little love. Mommy loves you.